Weekend

My weekend has gone quite well. We had an indian takeaway last night & lots of wine as it was our wedding anniversary, that has been my only blip. (Quite a big blip I know!) I am feeling slimmer & my clothes are fitting better.

I have not been too hungry at all, this is a good time of my month for me to do well. I will continue to take advantage of that.

Exercise is still not going well. I have had a busy weekend with kids parties & lots of other essential chores. All I seem to manage is some of the school runs, which I try to fast walk, it only take about 20 mins each way so it is not much but better than nothing at all. It must do some good though as when the kids are on scholl hols & I don't even do the walking I feel that I turn to blubber quickly.
Anyway, enough waffling for now, cheerio

Day 7 - YAY!!!!

Weigh day today, I am feeling slimmer & my scales suggested a loss this am. I was delighted when I got to ww to find I had lost 3 & 1/2 lbs. That is an amazing achievement for me as I am a 1/2 lb a week girl normally but I have eaten all good stuff this week & none bad. I would normally eat crisps & bread but just count the points whereas this week I have hardly had any bread, no crisps but lots of wholesome food. I have actually eaten much more!

With regards to my appointment with the nurse, I would love to say it went well but it didn't actually go at all, I was really tempted to cancel as I was shattered & I feel like I am getting a cold , my daughter was tired & really needed a nap & I didn't have my own car so had to take hubby's which I don't like driving. Well I pushed myself to go only to find I was 24 hrs late! Durr! I had remembered the time correctly but not the date. I have reappointed but it is not for 2 weeks so I will see how I am doing, if I continue to lose on my own I will cancel.

So sticking with it & have actually enjoyed it this week ( did I really say that???) So bring on week 2. Shopping tomorrow to restock on all foods good. The fruit flies (my kids) just devour however much fruit I but & I hide a stash in the fridge from them. Sad, but necessary!
Enough for now, back soon!

Day 5- Bread!

I have been off bread all week, felt good, bloating seemed to be going down then tonight I did a party tea for my son's birthday & counted up my plateful, was within my points, felt satisfied but later on just felt like I had overeaten. I think it maybe just sits there & doesn't digest easily. The thing is that I love bread, especially the seeded stuff. I think it is time to acknowledge that it isn't so keen on me. Back on the bread wagon tomorrow for another few days to see how I feel.

I have kept off the scales so far this week, I usually weigh myself on monday & thursday then weigh in at ww on a thurs evening. I just know that if I hadn't lost anything yesterday I would have become despondent. I am feeling better in myself so that is more important than the dreaded scales.

I have an appointment tomorrow with the nurse at our surgery to discuss my weight issues. I am hoping to be able to have the ww vouchers. I currently help to save money so never listen to the leader as I am counting money & filling in paperwork at that time. I would like to try a different night & leader to really go for it with renewed vigour for the 12 weeks. I will update tomorrow night.

I am still struggling to fit any formal exercise but I am physically active most of day. I have scrubbed my mother's floor tiles & grout & thoroughly cleaned her kitchen cupboards this am which was physically hard work so i will count that as my exercise for today!

Anyway, enough waffling for know. Be back tomorrow.

Day 4-

Feeling optimistic. I write a journal everyday to assist in my weight loss & fitness efforts where I write what I have eaten, any exercise, fruit & veg, track my water intake & generally how I am feeling. My enthusiasm & positivity vary from day to day so I have decided to rate out of five how positive I am feeling (that I can reach a 'more healthy weight'.) Today it is 4/5 - I can do this, I will get there, the mountain is easily surmountable. Some days my feelings tell a very different story, I am doomed to failure, this weight will stay with me forever, I will just get fatter, I will never be fit again- these are all thoughts that regularly go through my help & knock my confidence.

This first week is going well so far, enjoying the healthy food, coped well with challenges yesterday of being out much longer than planned, actually got round to doing some exercise today. All good & promising. I will continue to take one day at a time.

I intend to list my reasons for this journey, when I have more than a few minutes to spare, but for now I will set my goals:-

1. To drop a dress size by the time I need to buy summer clothes
2. To maintain that size
3. To run race for life without stopping.

Anyway, enough for now, cheerio

Well day 2 of the new me challenge has gone fairly well. As it's a Saturday I have had a few more obstacles to get over. (taking my 10 yr old son shopping & treating him to a hot sausage roll while having 'just' a cup of tea springs to mind!) I have also caved & had some wine with our evening meal. I really wanted to not drink any wine for this first week but I have accounted for it so I am letting myself off. I am doing weight watchers & have been for some time, I have just changed my approach this week. I want to mainly do 'no count' ( not available on the current program but I have the old literature) I am counting points today though for a bit more flexibility & if I don't eat any more today which I don't plan to I will have done good.
I am actually a gold member at ww, even if I did reach my goal back in 2001 & only stayed there for about 2 weeks (or was it 3 hours lol!) Once a gold member always a gold member though. I have had 2 more children since I got to goal & developed hypothyroidism so I find it much tougher to lose nowadays & so much easier to gain-sigh! I think pushing the big 4- 0 doesn't help either. I will not give up to a life of lard though, I will be a fit chick again! Anyway Adios for today :-)

Day one - new life

First day of new life has gone very well (to be expected I know) I have not felt hungry. I have not done any formal exercise but have had a very busy day with hardly any sitting down. Managed to work up a sweat washing floors.
I am hoping to start training for Race for life next week (waiting for new trainers) I am going to use my running made easy book & do the 1 minute plan as I have had success with this in the past. I am very overweight (about 3 1/2 stone above the top of healthy weight range) so I need to take it very steady & build up slowly. (I probably shouldn't try running but it makes me feel like I am really doing something) I also want to get back on my bike for some lower impact exercise. Both of these I can do without having to be out the house for a long time so should be easier to fit in.
I have been shopping today & stocked up on lots of fruit, veg & other healthy stuff. I had to make a decision that 'I am worth it', as so often in the past I would not buy the stuff that would help me due to financial constraints, well they are still there but I have decided to make my health a priority & invest a bit more thoughtfully in my future. I am very concientious with my kids nutrition but in the past have not had the same values for myself.
Anyway, that's all for now, looking forward to day 2!

New life starts tomorrow! Not sure how it's going to go/how long it will last. I have tried this weight loss malarkey lots of times before, I start off well but soon hurdles become too high & I end up caving, eating rubbish & not exercising. That approach has a negative effect - eat rubbish- feel rubbish & there starts my downward spiral. I have lost confidence in my ability to do this, feel despondent & almost sure to fail, I appreciate this is not a recipe for success!
I have a very busy stressful few months coming up, normally a recipe for weight gain for me but this needs to stop, I need to break this destructive cycle, I need to stop using food as an emotional aid & learn to give it it's appropriate place in my life - as fuel.
I would like to use my blog for accountability (to myself). To recognise my success & what 'makes' me fail. I would like to be able to document my exercise, so I am encouraged to do more but also acknowledge the efforts I do make.
Well here I go!!!!