So pleased kids are back to school so I can get out walking again, it really helps that it has been such a lovely day today. I am feeling a bit achy tonight as I haven't done much exercise at all for the summer hols, it's a good achy though.
My diet plans are just to try on my own for a bit. I know ww inside out, when I stick to it it works, so I will go back to keeping on track & see what happens. ( I left before my hols as I am starting a new job soon so can't go to that meeting) I must not spit my dummy out when weight loss is slow though. I think if I can get over the hurdle of not losing when I think I should I will be ok.
I have lost a couple of lbs already, just need to keep going.
Millyx
Thursday 2 September 2010
Saturday 28 August 2010
So........
Well it's laughable really! Been away on hols again, had a great time with my family, wonderful infact. We went to a fab hotel in Gozo (Malta) where the staff really looked after us. We were half board, breakfast I didn't go mad (but ate 3x as much as I normally would lol) we ate lunch out or I made us a light lunch in our self catering facilities, when we ate out I always had a salad & about 6 chips! Evening meal was delish, a la carte, I chose soup rather than pasta most evenings, main course was meat, potatoes & fresh veg, always lovely. We had barby 2x a week. desserts I mainly picked fruit or none but 3 times I didn't resist the delicous cheesecake. But..... I nearly always had bread & butter with my evening meal, I had butter on my toast the first week but I was growing at an alarming rate so I knocked that on the head. I would love to say they were my only downfalls but OH NO! most afternoons when the kids had a snack - crisps/biscuits I joined in & then there was the drink. a beer at lunchtime, hubby & I would share a bottle of wine with our evening meal & then go back to our apartment & share another.
The plus side, I swam a fair bit, played with the kids, dived in, bombed in the pool lol, swam nearly a full length underwater, swam in the sea, tried to walk but it was stifeling (sp?) too hot to walk much.
The damage? not as bad as I thought, but the damage was probably already done with my previous holiday.
The stats:- 7/7 pre Ibiza - 14 st 7 lbs
15/7 home - 15 st
7/8 pre Gozo - 15st 2lbs
22/8 home - 15st 7lbs
So..... over the course of about 5 1/2 weeks I have gained a stone!!!! shocking I know, I have never gained so much in a short space of time but I am not too fussed at the moment, I am sure I will be again but right now I am chilled.
I read Peridots blog tonight & she mentioned a 27 year old dying of cancer, that's so tragic, she was in her prime surely? I have also just done a 12 & 1/2 hr bank shift on my old neonatal unit. I met a new mum who had just had her 1st child, she is 7 mths older than me but looked at least 7 yrs older, her health is dreadful, she faces such challenges just to keep her baby with her & that slapped me in the face. I may not be the 'approaching 40' that I envisioned but I am doing ok. I have 5 lovely kids who stress me out so much & make it difficult for me to make exercise a priority but I love them, I love my life being centered around them and I am thankful for them even though they exhaust me. I am overweight & I have some health issues that won't be going away but I am not disabled. I still have a very full, busy life, it tires me but I nearly always keep up. I am basically telling myself to get a grip & get real. I also met a woman a few weeks ago who is 2 years younger than me, she is disabled & she will only get worse (was previously normal until 18 mths ago). I feel as though God is telling me to make the best of what I have, I am not so bad really, I am not what I thought I would be but I am still attractive, healthy & very blessed. I scrub up well, my hubby still finds me attractive (how I don't know lol!) & I can keep up with my life.
So where do I go from here? I fluctuate between wanting to lose weight & wanting to be healthy. I live & dream ww points & find it hard when I go over them. I still do though. I long to be able to run, I need to buy running shoes, I should make that a priority. I bought some a while back but bought too cheap & they don't fit. I am a bit lost for where to go, but I can't stay here, I even contemplate slimfast. I need a plan, it's got to tick all the boxes. 1. lose weight 2. be healthy 3. be fit. I have about 4 mths till I hit 40, any suggestions?
Milly x
The plus side, I swam a fair bit, played with the kids, dived in, bombed in the pool lol, swam nearly a full length underwater, swam in the sea, tried to walk but it was stifeling (sp?) too hot to walk much.
The damage? not as bad as I thought, but the damage was probably already done with my previous holiday.
The stats:- 7/7 pre Ibiza - 14 st 7 lbs
15/7 home - 15 st
7/8 pre Gozo - 15st 2lbs
22/8 home - 15st 7lbs
So..... over the course of about 5 1/2 weeks I have gained a stone!!!! shocking I know, I have never gained so much in a short space of time but I am not too fussed at the moment, I am sure I will be again but right now I am chilled.
I read Peridots blog tonight & she mentioned a 27 year old dying of cancer, that's so tragic, she was in her prime surely? I have also just done a 12 & 1/2 hr bank shift on my old neonatal unit. I met a new mum who had just had her 1st child, she is 7 mths older than me but looked at least 7 yrs older, her health is dreadful, she faces such challenges just to keep her baby with her & that slapped me in the face. I may not be the 'approaching 40' that I envisioned but I am doing ok. I have 5 lovely kids who stress me out so much & make it difficult for me to make exercise a priority but I love them, I love my life being centered around them and I am thankful for them even though they exhaust me. I am overweight & I have some health issues that won't be going away but I am not disabled. I still have a very full, busy life, it tires me but I nearly always keep up. I am basically telling myself to get a grip & get real. I also met a woman a few weeks ago who is 2 years younger than me, she is disabled & she will only get worse (was previously normal until 18 mths ago). I feel as though God is telling me to make the best of what I have, I am not so bad really, I am not what I thought I would be but I am still attractive, healthy & very blessed. I scrub up well, my hubby still finds me attractive (how I don't know lol!) & I can keep up with my life.
So where do I go from here? I fluctuate between wanting to lose weight & wanting to be healthy. I live & dream ww points & find it hard when I go over them. I still do though. I long to be able to run, I need to buy running shoes, I should make that a priority. I bought some a while back but bought too cheap & they don't fit. I am a bit lost for where to go, but I can't stay here, I even contemplate slimfast. I need a plan, it's got to tick all the boxes. 1. lose weight 2. be healthy 3. be fit. I have about 4 mths till I hit 40, any suggestions?
Milly x
Wednesday 28 July 2010
Whoops!
Not really doing anything well right now. I have been unwell again. I really need to get to the bottom of what is causing my problems. I feel a bit annoyed that I have been going to the Dr's since January with issues & I am still having them. I am mostly annoyed that I am having to think what could be causing my problems, that should be their job. I spend alot of time reading on the internet alternating between reassuring myself & frightening myself. I haven't had a peace about my health since new year & I need that peace!
Consequently my diet has gone to pot, I have been eating fairly normal though but I feel like I am bigger & more flabby due to lack of exercise. I need to get back into the cycle of eat well, feel well. I aim to start on friday/ saturday as it is payday & I can buy lots of fruit & veg. Until then we are geting by on the basics which aren't always the healthier option. I have been eating biscuits as snacks because it's all we have in. ( I don't buy the biscuits-hubbys grandad sends them for the kids)
I will try to update soon. Milly x
Consequently my diet has gone to pot, I have been eating fairly normal though but I feel like I am bigger & more flabby due to lack of exercise. I need to get back into the cycle of eat well, feel well. I aim to start on friday/ saturday as it is payday & I can buy lots of fruit & veg. Until then we are geting by on the basics which aren't always the healthier option. I have been eating biscuits as snacks because it's all we have in. ( I don't buy the biscuits-hubbys grandad sends them for the kids)
I will try to update soon. Milly x
Friday 16 July 2010
As bad as I thought!
WW was as bad as my scales suggested argh! I really have put all that weight on in one week. This is a bit of a shock to me but I really should have seen it coming. In the past I was slow to lose which was a bit of a pain but I was also slow to gain. I now seem to have a double whammy that I am slow to lose but quick to gain. I think I need to just get to grips with my battle - I EAT TOO MUCH!!!!!!! I am surprisingly ok at the moment. I have other things on my mind that are overshadowing my weight issues.
While away I thought alot about being normal & healthy. I think I am too far gone for this but I am not convinced. I used to maintain, I seem to be struggling with that right now. I think that it is my body that has changed rather than my approach, that hasn't really changed, if anything I have more good days than I used too. Anyway I am plodding on because its all I can do. There is no magic cure. I just need to get my head round the fact that I need less than I take in. I will be back.
Milly x
While away I thought alot about being normal & healthy. I think I am too far gone for this but I am not convinced. I used to maintain, I seem to be struggling with that right now. I think that it is my body that has changed rather than my approach, that hasn't really changed, if anything I have more good days than I used too. Anyway I am plodding on because its all I can do. There is no magic cure. I just need to get my head round the fact that I need less than I take in. I will be back.
Milly x
Thursday 15 July 2010
210 lbs again
Well back to 210 again. I will weigh in at ww again tonight & it might not be that bad, I sometimes expect more weight gain because of my morning weigh in but then ww isn't as bad. I think some mornings I just weigh 'heavy' I then don't gain any in the day like I normally would. We shall see though. I am not too disheartened because if I have gained 6 lbs in 1 week I know why. It is when I gain for no good reason that I get upset. Back to cleaner healthier eating. I think I may experience hunger for a few days lol!
Back soon, Millyx
Back soon, Millyx
Wednesday 14 July 2010
Been away
We have just come home from a great weeks holiday in Ibiza. We had a fab time, really good fun & lots of delicious food & drink. I didn't limit myself at all so I am dreading the scales in the morning but hey ho, I ate the food that puts the weight on!
Before we went away I did really well, I reduced my food & alcohol intake dramatically & it paid off, I got down to 204lbs which is an all time low for me since I started back at ww last november. In that time I have lost 9 lbs, not much I know but it has stayed off (until I weigh in tomorrow) In the week before I went away I realised I have been very lazy with my eating, I ate masses of fruit & veg and I felt so much better, cleaner somehow. I think I have got into just making sure I have my 5/day & keeping within my points, it definately worked upping the f&v & reducing the carbs, I am actually looking forward to getting back on track because my over indulgence has given me heartburn over the last few days.
I have a new goal, currently my bmi is in the obese catergory at about 32. I thought a good goal would be to get to be 'just' overweight. That is 190 lbs for my height which is a loss of over a stone (15lbs) I would like to get there by this time next year, slow I know but I just get upset with myself if I aim to lose a stone in 2 mths & end up losing 2lbs. If I aim for longer I will be delighted if I achieve my goal before then.
Anyway, off to catch up with all in blogland. Milly x
Before we went away I did really well, I reduced my food & alcohol intake dramatically & it paid off, I got down to 204lbs which is an all time low for me since I started back at ww last november. In that time I have lost 9 lbs, not much I know but it has stayed off (until I weigh in tomorrow) In the week before I went away I realised I have been very lazy with my eating, I ate masses of fruit & veg and I felt so much better, cleaner somehow. I think I have got into just making sure I have my 5/day & keeping within my points, it definately worked upping the f&v & reducing the carbs, I am actually looking forward to getting back on track because my over indulgence has given me heartburn over the last few days.
I have a new goal, currently my bmi is in the obese catergory at about 32. I thought a good goal would be to get to be 'just' overweight. That is 190 lbs for my height which is a loss of over a stone (15lbs) I would like to get there by this time next year, slow I know but I just get upset with myself if I aim to lose a stone in 2 mths & end up losing 2lbs. If I aim for longer I will be delighted if I achieve my goal before then.
Anyway, off to catch up with all in blogland. Milly x
Thursday 24 June 2010
210lbs again
Enough said :-(
Edited to add, I gained 1lb at ww this evening, it is not as bad as I expected. I weighed again on my own scales before I went & I had lost 1lb since this morning. I think it is fluid retention, probably due to a high salt meal last night. I don't feel as bad as I did. It is 12 days until I go on my holiday, that is enough time to at least lose a couple of lbs & feel alot better about myself.
Cheerio for now. Millyx
Edited to add, I gained 1lb at ww this evening, it is not as bad as I expected. I weighed again on my own scales before I went & I had lost 1lb since this morning. I think it is fluid retention, probably due to a high salt meal last night. I don't feel as bad as I did. It is 12 days until I go on my holiday, that is enough time to at least lose a couple of lbs & feel alot better about myself.
Cheerio for now. Millyx
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