Fail!

I have just done a demonstration of what I do! Over the past couple of weeks I have followed my usual pattern & reacted just how I normally do. Have I not learnt anything?

It goes like this:- New start, feeling motivated, feeling healthy, craving healthy foods, wanting to exercise. Sticking to my plan, result-scales go down-I feel like I am getting there. I continue to try, not quite as stellar as before but still much better that previous & I see an increase on the scales. My response- to throw a hissy fit & stamp my feet, eat everything I shouldn't & stop journaling my eating habits/ exercise & in this case blogging. I am effectively burying my head in the sand & throwing my toys out of the pram. The effect is ofcourse more gain so I feel totally despondent. Now if my initial response had been 'it's just fluid, if I stick with it the lbs will be gone in a couple of days & take some of their mates with them' I would probably a couple of lbs down now. Why oh why do I do this to myself, I even see it coming.

Anyway, to be more postive, I maybe have learnt something. I may have gone of track but not in an 'eat my own body weight in crisps' kind of way. Just a few(sometimes 10) extra points a day (for 4 days) & an inrease in unhealthy foods & a decrease in the good stuff. I have also accepted that this isn't this isn't going to happen unless I up my exercise so I have walked about 5 miles today & aim to do at least 3 tomorrow. So despite my achy hip I feel good tonight & ready to have another new start!

Here's to New starts!