Reasons

I wanted to post my reasons for this blubber busting journey so I can look back & remind myself what this is all about if I feel myself slipping back into blubber land. So here goes:-

1. My health - I have niggly problems with my joints (hips & knees) that I think would improve if I wasn't so overweight. I know having a BMI over 30 puts me at an increased risk of a whole shed load of nasty diseases, my BMI is currently 32.3. (I know that a BMI of over 25 increases the risk but I am taking baby steps here)

2. My self esteem - I feel old & frumpy, I cannot wear the clothes I want to wear & often feel judged because of my size ( I am aware that this is probably a load of rubbish). I want to be able to wear more fashionable clothes without discomfort & feeling gross & not be ashamed of my body.

3. My fitness level - I am unfit, I am not happy about that. I want my body to be strong & supple and able to cope with the days challenges without being exhausted. I want to be able to go out for a run.

4. My kids - I want my kids to be proud of me. I have 4 fab sons aged from 16 - 6. I don't want them to be ashamed of me. I have 1 daughter who is 22 mths. I want to stay young enough to play with her at soft play & still look hip & trendy when she is a teenager (not that I do now!!!) I shouldn't base my journey on others but my sister lost 7 stone a few years ago. I have seen how it has transformed her from frumpy to fabulous & I want some of that!

That is all I can think of for now, I may update later if I think of anymore.

On another note, I am still doing well, I am amazing myself as I have usually got despondent by now, I actually did get a bit despondent yesterday as I made the mistake of getting on the scales which said 2 lbs up since saturday, I was gutted as it was only 1 meal that I had gone off track (admittedly a big off track) so I could have gone either way. Part of me was yelling 'what's the point? I can never get anywhere, why am I putting myself through this?' My sane part was answering 'get a grip, what do you expect, just get back on track & you can pull them lbs back' Well on this occasion I listened to the sane response, I stuck with it & dillydallied before getting on the scales this am, should I/ shouldn't I? Well in the end I got on, I was pleased to see I was 1 & 1/2 lb down(that is 1/2lb down from ww on thursday) I need to resolve to stop getting on the blinking scales, they are mean & can make me go off track. So no more scales until thursday & then not again until thursday after. If I stick with this the weight will come off, I will not give my scales the power to knock me off track!!! There that told them!