This is it!

And so it has happened again. Great week, 27 miles walked, feeling fitter, feeling slimmer, walking easier already, food has been great, have coped really well, all very good but.......... lost half at ww, but this is it, I 'know' that if I manage to not lose the plot & spit my dummy out that I will see results next week. It doesn't help me that my walking pals lost 2 +1/2 & 5 lbs. They are both only about 1 stone overweight. This is where I usually get despondent, thinking 'what's the point?' this is why I want to poke my gp in the eye when he tells me 'it's simple-eat less, move more' this is where I want to rant that it's just not fair, why doesn't my body work? but saddest of all to me, this is where I think I will always be fat, that thought makes me want to cry. I know I am doing this right, I know I am not eating hidden calories and I also know that it does work when I stick to it. There are a few explanations for my poor loss 1. it is just after mid month which is a time of fluid retention for me, 2. all the extra walking is building muscle (it has been hard slog!) 3. last nights walk was the 5.5 mile 'biggy' of the week, I have heard a theory that the day after a big workout our muscles retain fluid, cluthing at straws maybe-but if it helps me keep on the straight & narow I will have that one!

If I had posted last night it would have been a totally different post, I was on a high, our walk was fab, we averaged a 14.5 minute mile & that was including our warm up & cool down. The 50 mins when we really went for it were fast. We walked with a couple of friends who have been doing this circuit for 6 mths, it was hard to keep up with them but we did it (one friend did lag behind but not me,)I even managed a short run & seemed to have a spring in my step. I have noticed that I am much more energetic & my knees don't seem to be as painful when walking downstairs & this difference is exactly 1 week since the 1st longer walk we did. This fills me with optimism that my measly 1/2lb weight loss is not stealing. I just need to see this journey I am on as a long comfortable walk rather than a sprint. I have to commit to the long haul. I think I am a long haul kind of person, I must remember when I am struggling that my friends who lose so much easier than me also seem to gain at the same speed, I am slower to lose than I am to gain but I think that is true for everyone. I am sure that nobody finds it easy, there just wouldn't be any overweight people in the world if it was that easy.

Well that's all for now, I will be back with an update soon. x